Being punished for being what I am

Just expressing what you feel can even bring the tower of trust and intense relationship down, is what I have experienced from my recent relationship with my best friend. Really cannot comment on what the scenario was or whose mistake was it but the important thing is that outcome of this chaos have taken me down from what I really was to what I am really not.

Sometimes things changes so drastically that you just cannot control anything and what becomes more relevant is to save the things you love and cannot afford to loose.

Cyclone hits in a fraction of second and leave marks behind that no one knows will last for how long. Similar is what happened with me. Unknown from the danger of cyclone approaching I was trying to make things better at my own pace and further make things clear between us, I thought of saying that being together is what matters and nothing else on friendship day, I made a card by my self of 22 inches by 15.5 inches in size and planned to give her but on friendship day itself the cyclone hit as I heard there is nothing more to be heard or said.

Even today I have the card with me but really don’t know what to do with. Things are really no more the way they were I faced a huge damage in my career and mental state. There were times when I had to approach psychologists to seek help but in the end its only you who can make the difference and no body else. Now my way of looking at others has changed, a shrill feeling always travel through my nerves. Without raising question of who was wrong or who was right as that is what doesn’t matter, all I can say is “I am being punished for being what I am“.